Time

I have just got caught up with my blogs but not my emails. As soon as you miss a blog session, you begin to realise how much you actually do.... Catching up has taken a bit of effort.

We had pork chops for tea and watched American History X which was very good. Didn't leave much time for anything else though and now it is nearly bed time and I have done little else. Oh I put some asfatedo (sp!) stuff in with the mushrooms so experiments have begun with the third herb / spice. We are still using the black onion seed but i didn't fall in love with fenugreek...

Today I felt icky. If the ladies at work are still pulling my hormones into synch then it is my pre-hormonal blip, worsened by the moon maybe. I didn't perk up until I got to leave. Maybe it was just because I was too hot... It has already cooled this evening and tomorrow is supposed to be much cooler, thankfully. I don't like it too hot and heat makes me want to have a siesta.

I still feel off at work. I don't feel part of the team so much and I don't know what to do or say sometimes that isn't going to be taken wrong and still enable me to get my job done well. I have a strong work ethic, I don't think this is always a good thing. *sigh*

I want..... something else...... I am beginning to understand that time really is a gift. Not time to do what others want but time to truly do what you want. I never appreciated it when I had it....