Frayed Edges

I am sure I had things to say but right now I feel too icky to remember them... A couple of late nights. Lots of food I shouldn't have eaten yesterday including way too much grease and dairy products. Pollen. Heat. Moon time. Too many pills! Painkillers, allergy tablets and antibiotics. I feel very ungrounded and floaty. I shall be off to bed soon....

I was being creative but I was getting to the point where I couldn't tell if what I was doing was nice or not! Best to stop there I fear! The expensive interference paints I bought yesterday are beautiful and those tubes will last me forever as less is definitely more. If you put too thick a layer of them on it looks white and the colour doesn't show through from underneath so well which gives a different look. The merest smear of pigment is enough to catch the light and do beautiful things to it...

I am finding a little that I am setting myself harsh targets in terms of what I want to make for others. That is not to say that the standard is high but that the time commitment is. I am loving this but it is very slow going. Particularly as blogging itself seems to be eating more and more time.

I discovered this week that wishcast wednesday, if you do it nicely and go and wish for everyone eats much time. Wreck This Journal is also eating much time, not so much in my wrecking but in visiting others blogs to see what they are up to. All fascinating stuff but I do feel a little as if something is going to have to give somewhere along the line....

There was time today for a long bath to soothe my stomach. I decided not to take my current read to the bath as I wanted to escape not think. In fact thinking is the last thing I am capable of right now. So I read a lovely little Charles de Lint book. One of the things in this books was a magical charm bracelet. My Mum has a charm bracelet and the little charms on it are so different from more modern ones, so much more intricate and detailed. Little silver boxes with coloured glass containing money folded very tightly for emergency use.... They are the ones I remember best...

My Mum started a charm bracelet for my sister when she was born but one was never started for me. I think it is one of the perils of being a second child the same sex as the first... One day I am determined to start collecting for a charm bracelet or even learn silver smithing so I could make them myself, who knows... I always loved my Mum and my Sister's bracelets very much...

In order to soothe my stomach I ended up resting on my elbows and lying the wrong way up in the bath. I had to call F in to remove my glasses to somewhere safe and to garb a towel for me to put my head on in an attempt to make myself comfortable. He was very amused to say the least!

Next weekend I am not going to stay up late or eat stupid foods.... I am sure I had some intelligent things I wanted to say. Maybe I should have written them down before they passed from my ragged brain...