Sometimes I feel like I tempt fate. Sometimes I feel like I make things bad. Me. Myself.
I was happy, truly happy and content. The day after I had to have my lovely Big Dog put down.
Ever since then my finances have been dire. I can not manage them for toffee. I spend. I am a ditz with a card. One little charge caused by a huge vets bill sets me over the edge and charge after charge follows. How much money has the bank swallowed for itself the last three weeks?
Truth is I have no idea, I keep such bad track of it. I think oh it will be OK now and get tempted by some new papers or paint or tools as I get my lunch. Doing this once a week is fine but if you start doing it every day. I have more craft supplies than I could use in a year while working full time.
Thing is, I only needed to spend one week being good and then it will be alright. Can I do this? No. Cos I don't keep track of things.
T o make things worse we still haven't brought a new fridge freezer so we have to shop every day for food. Lunch is a cheap meal if you buy bread and make fillings but without a fridge...
Thing is I am so cross and frustrated by myself. i know I ranted about not bringing out my shadow self and since then my shadow self has been running riot through my blog singing 'I shall have a voice! I shall! I shall! I shall!'
Ugh! What am I like? I need some discipline.... Quite a lot of it really....
Particularly as they are about to give me a contract at work and I shall go from weekly to monthly pay.......
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